December 06, 2008

Changes

I finally had my breaking point with my job. On Tuesday, I was running late, and in a mad dash to get all the kids delivered to school and babysitter, I was super stressed out and on the verge of tears because I knew that when I called into work to let them know, I was going to get hell for it. My job had become quite a source of stress in my life, and it had gotten to the point to where I dreaded having to go into the office everyday. Just dealing with all the bullshit, the drama, and the 8 bosses was getting to be too much. The way we were treated was awful, if one person made a mistake, then everyone got bitched at. It was rediculous. If someone makes a mistake, you take it up with that person, not the whole office.

So, I put in my notice. Handed in my resignation saying my last day would be the 19th. Well, I didn't hear from my boss for pretty much most of the day after sending the email, and then I got a call from one of the women I had interviewed with for another position. She was trying to call my references but one of the phone numbers wasn't working. I gave her the new number, and then about 10 minutes later I received a call from my boss. "So, you're leaving us, huh? You going somewhere else?" to which I relied, "well, that all depends. Not sure yet what I'm doing." So then she tells me that her and the VP had talked it over, and since it was slow, and the account wasn't doing much, that they had decided that my last day should be the 5th. I would be leaving this company in only a matter of days.

Now I started to panic. Did I make the right decision? I had quit my job before I was sure I had another job lined up. What if this other job, my dream job, didn't come through? What was I going to do then? God knows, in this economy, with everyone losing jobs, it wouldn't be easy to find something else. I mean, granted, we live in Alaska, where we're not really affected as hard as the rest of the country when shit goes down, but we were starting to feel some of the effects, and it's only a matter of time before things get worse. Besides, it's right before Christmas and we're already struggling to recover from a hit our finances took in October.

As the days progressed, and Friday loomed closer and closer, I was excited about the fact that I was leaving, and didn't have to deal with this crap anymore, but I was getting more and more anxious as to wether or not I had made the right decision. Then Friday morning came along.

For the first time this week, I was able to sleep the night before, and woke up early enough to get a shower in before I had to deliver all the kids to their respective daytime locations. But I managed to leave my cell phone sitting next to the sink when we walked out of the house, and I realized this as I was halfway to our first destination. I managed to deliver all the children and have enough time to run back home and get my cell phone. I had missed about 5 calls. No surprise since I knew that my husband had been trying to call me all morning. I didn't bother to check to see who the calls were from, I figured they were from him. So I cleared the message from the screen, then saw I had a voicemail. Again, I figured it was from my husband so I cleared the screen.

Let me take a moment here to just say that anyone who knows me, knows that I'm horrible when it comes to voicemail and calling people back. I like to think that if it's really important, they'll call back. So I usually wind up leaving voicemail messages in my inbox for quite a while before I check them. But for whatever reason, this morning, I decided to check the voicemail before I even left the house to head to work.

It was the deputy director of the position I had applied for. She wanted me to call her back. I sat there for a few moments, looking at me phone, repeating "oh my god." over and over. Finally I dialed the number and called her back. They were offering me the position. They wanted to know how soon I could start! I told her Monday, she was surprised, and then I explained that today was my last day with this company. Perfect timing she said! So without missing ANY workdays, I have a new job. And not only do I have a new job, I have the job I've always wanted! My dream job! How awesome is that!! Thank you God!

Now, a lot of the people I know would have left their position, said screw it, I've got a new job, I hate this place anyway, I'm not going to deal with this shit anymore, and leave everyone high and dry. Not me. I have a very strong work ethic, and I actually care about a lot of the people I work with, and I care wether or not someone is going to have to come along after me and clean everything up. So I spent my 8 hours making sure I had everything covered and making sure all the small details were taken care of. I cleaned out my desk and made sure that all the work I had done in the past month was taken care of, and if there was anything left pending. Made a nice neat little stack of work and put it on my supervisors desk as I left. I would like to think I left on good note, even sending out my goodbye emails and thanking everyone for such an opportunity to work with them, sent emails to my boss and the VP thanking them for allowing me the opportunity to work with them, and on such a complicated account when I had no experience to start with. Unfortunately, I didn't get a response from either person, but I did get plenty of well wishes and goodbyes from a majority of my co-workers. And that was more than enough for me! I am going to miss those people. I will not however, miss the rest of them.

I'm excited for my new career, my new adventure, and this new direction my life is heading. For once in my life, everything seems balanced. And that's a good thing, since I'm a Libra and need that balance. You know, scales and all that. My love life is fantastic, my home life is fantastic, and now, my professional life is fantastic. What more could a girl ask for??

November 04, 2008

On My Mind....

Setting aside the outcome of the election, I just hope everyone is able to set aside our differences for a moment to reflect on the fact that history has just been made, and in more ways that just the fact that a black man has finally been elected into the highest office in our country. More voters turned out for this election than any election in history. More people got involved, more people asked questions, more people voiced their opinions and their concerns on the issues than ever before in any moment in history! No matter who you cast your vote for, you should be damn proud to live in this country, and to be a part of this historical moment in our country! We were all a part of a moment that will forever be recorded in our history books! I don't know about you, but there's a certain excitment in knowing that I have not only witnessed this moment, but I actively took part in it!!

We, as a country, have made amazing leaps and bounds in civil rights movements, we have grown to be an amazing country, proving that we are still a proud civilization, and we are still a country full of people who cherish and will protect our individual rights that should be the basis for all human rights. The rights to express ourselves, to voice our opinion, and to be heard, and to make a difference have never been more prevalent than what I have witnessed first hand in the past 2 years!! I have heard many arguments, debates, challenges, and theories, mainly over the past few months as things really started to heat up. And despite the fact that I have mainly sat back and allowed myself to take it all in, to hear both sides of the argument, to weigh my options silently without agitating any emotions or hurting anyones feelings, I have taken into consideration every single point of view that has crossed my path, and weighed it carefully.

That being said, I am more that willing to say that yes, I voted for Obama. Quite frankly, it was one of the hardest choices I've made in my life, and I had to do a lot of digging to make my final decision, I was literally on the fence pretty much the whole time. It was such a tough choice, in fact, that standing in the little enclosure, I had to cast my vote for everything else first and come back to the President once those were cast. I had to lay my vote where I felt my priorites lay, and I feel that I followed not only my instincts, not only my heart, not only my mind, but most importantly, I followed my beliefs. I followed those things that were absolutely the most important issues I feel that I, as an indivual American, face in my day to day life!

First let me say how absolutely dissapointed I was in the McCain/Palin campaign and the lack of focus on family, the core center of our country. (First let me just say that I strongly feel that one of the biggest contributors to our society's decline is the lack of focus on core values and the principles behind what a family is REALLY about!) I was extremely disappointed with Senator McCain when I learned he voted down the Domestic Violence Protection Act. Going straight to McCain's own campaign website, I wasn't led to ANY information on his opinions or concerns for the women or children in this country, other than he wants to over-turn Roe vs. Wade. No stance on preventing child abuse, no stance on absent parents, no stance at all concerning the sickenly rapid rate of of violence and abuse towards women and children in this country. However, when you look over at the Obama/Biden side of the campaign trail, he clearly marks where he stands for family and how he plans to help Americans.

Such as:
Epanding the Family Medical Leave Act-Right now it only affect companies with 50 or more employees, they want to change that to cover companies with 25 or more employees, expand it so if an employee needs to leave to care for an elderly parents medical needs, it's covered. Allowing parents to take up to 24 hours a year to attend their childrens academic activities at school, expand it to cover employees who need to leave to address issues of domestic violence or sexual assault.

Expand Paid Sick Days-More than half of all private sector employees have NO paid sick leave. This is a major issue for those of us that simply cannot afford to miss a day of work, not to mention don't have health insurance, can't afford to see a medical provider, and run the risk of not only spreading disease and infection, but run the risk of making ourselves worse off. (I've had a serious sinus infection for over a month now, but I simply CANNOT miss anymore work, and I don't have health insurance because it's far too expensive with rediculously high deductibles, and I can't afford to go see a doctor, or even pay for the prescription!)

As far as taxes go, I could clearly discern what McCain's stance on taxes were and his own campaign website was not at all clear on where he stands. However, with Obama:

*Provide generous tax cuts for low- and middle-income seniors, homeowners, the uninsured, and families sending a child to college or looking to save and accumulate wealth.

*Cut taxes for 95 percent of workers and their families with a tax cut of $500 for workers or $1,000 for working couples.

*Eliminate capital gains taxes for small businesses, cut corporate taxes for firms that invest and create jobs in the United States, and provide tax credits to reduce the cost of healthcare and to reward investments in innovation.

*Dramatically simplify taxes by consolidating existing tax credits, eliminating the need for millions of senior citizens to file tax forms, and enabling as many as 40 million middle-class Americans to do their own taxes in less than five minutes without an accountant.

*Middle class families will see their taxes cut – and no family making less than $250,000 will see their taxes increase. The typical middle class family will receive well over $1,000 in tax relief under the Obama plan, and will pay tax rates that are 20% lower than they faced under President Reagan. According to the Tax Policy Center, the Obama plan provides three times as much tax relief for middle class families as the McCain plan.

*Families making more than $250,000 will pay either the same or lower tax rates than they paid in the 1990s. Obama will ask the wealthiest 2% of families to give back a portion of the tax cuts they have received over the past eight years to ensure we are restoring fairness and returning to fiscal responsibility. But no family will pay higher tax rates than they would have paid in the 1990s. In fact, dividend rates would be 39 percent lower than what President Bush proposed in his 2001 tax cut.

*Obama’s plan will cut taxes overall, reducing revenues to below the levels that prevailed under Ronald Reagan (less than 18.2 percent of GDP). The Obama tax plan is a net tax cut – his tax relief for middle class families is larger than the revenue raised by his tax changes for families over $250,000. Coupled with his commitment to cut unnecessary spending, Obama will pay for this tax relief while bringing down the budget deficit.

Another very serious topic in my mind as well as my heart, having been a victim of it, is where my future president stands on domestic Violence. I couldn't find a single thing on the McCain campaign website concerning this very vital issue, but with Obama I found this:

*Approximately 1,400 women a year – four every day – die in the United States as a result of domestic violence. And 132,000 women report that they have been victims of a rape or attempted rape, and it is estimated that an even greater number have been raped, but do not report it. Senator Obama co-sponsored and helped reauthorize the Violence Against Women Act. Signed into law in January 2006, the bill funds and helps communities, nonprofit organizations, and police combat domestic violence, sexual assault, and stalking. The legislation establishes a sexual assault services program and provides education grants to prevent domestic violence.

(Please remember that McCain voted down the Domestic Violence Protection Act, a decision that I absolutely CANNOT stand behind, for ANY reason!)



Quite frankly, whether you feel as though I've been "brain-washed" or not, I did my own homework, didn't listen to the media, because God knows how biased they can be, I went directly to the sources themselves, and compared what information they have put out there on THEIR OWN, compared what information they have broadcasted as their take on what the "real issues" were, I didn't listen to the gossip (I never was interested in that Kindergarden game of 'Telephone' anyway!), and as I've said, I've followed my heart, my mind, and my beliefs. I prayed, I studied, I watched, I listened, and I read. Then I made my decision. I did NOT base my decision off of a name, race, gender, ethnic background, or any of the other things I have heard come from people's mouths. Quite frankly, deciding to NOT vote for someone simply because of what their parents chose as their middle name, NOT voting for someone simply because of the color of their skin, NOT voting for someone simply because they do or do not have a vagina or penis, NOT voting for someone because of idle gossip about where they were supposedly born, who their parents are, what kind of school they went to as a child, or their religious beliefs is simply put: IGNORANT. On something such as a Presidential election, you, as a registered voter in the United States of America have an obligation to find out and dig for the truth in this media obsessed society, and stop allowing popular local opinion and mass media coverage be your single influence in something that is an honored right in this country that up until this election, not too many people really cared to take part in. (I registered to vote ON my 18th birthday!)

I can't say what any one person's motivation was for voting for whoever they voted for, but I can express mine. And simply put, my motivation was by far and above all else, my family.

September 09, 2008

My vote... I want it to count!

We are standing on the edge of a very historical presidential election, no matter where the vote lands. And as such is about to happen, the last thing I want to do is cast my vote without learning what I need and should know first.

Making that decision, to do my homework to learn where each candidate lays on each issues, I have decided that I'm going to ignore the pundants, ignore the idle office chatter, and I certainly will not be paying attention to the media. I'm going straight to the source and want to know what each party has to say.

I have always been a Democrat to the core, much to dismay of MANY of my closest friends, and especially to my family, however, I find myself standing on a fence right now, unsure of which side I want to step down on. That's why I MUST, as a registered AMERICAN voter, find the truth and figure where I lay my ballot down.

The one thing I have constantly on my mind is that words really don't mean much. It's the actions that speak so much louder. Any candidate can SAY he's going to do this, or do that, or not do this or that, but what it REALLY comes down to, is how they hold up to those words. Either candidate can SAY they are going to end the war in Iraq, bring the troops home, but without all of the intelligence, without all of the information, without any of it, they can talk until they are blue in the face, because they simply don't have ALL of the facts! And that's something they will NOT have until they are sworn into office.

On a side note here: In my opinion, which is simply mine, and I have an American given right to not only have my opinion, but also to publish, verbalize, and SPEAK it as well, and I feel we never should have gone into Iraq. There was no reason for us to go there. Afghanistan is where our enemy lies, and where we should have focused our military efforts and attention. It was Osama Bin Laden that attacked the United States in 2001, not Saddam Huessein! It was Al Queda, not the Iraqi military regime that sent those planes hurdling into the twin towers, the pentagon, and that field in Virginia!! Somehow, Bush managed to put up all his smoke screens and divert our attention to Iraq, and next thing you know, we have over 1,000 soldiers dead, countless more injured, and 7 years later how far have we come? Bush has managed to run this country for 8 years, 7 of which we have been at war. And for what end? So we could experience a modern day Vietnam? A modern day Korea? And we're still NO CLOSER to catching Bin Laden as we were on the day those planes and those two towers went down on American soil!

Something that not many people know about me is that I have far more friends and family members that are actively in the military than any one person I know. More than half of those people are currently deployed in either Iraq or Afghanistan. I have spoken at great lengths with many of these soldiers, in just about every conceivable rank from simple airman to top-secret high ranked naval "spooks", about their opinions on what is going on. I have to say that honestly, just like our country, it's pretty divided as to how they feel. Half of them believe in the fight and think we are doing the right thing, half of them think this is useless and we shouldn't be there. There is no ONE person that can speak for the entire military, not even the majority of the military personel, because just like this country, it is vastly diversified and opinions vary greatly from one person to the next. So for any single person to say that the military personel feel this way or that way about the subject, it just seems so biased to me. In psychology, it's called "projecting".

I vow that this weekend, and over the course of the next 7 weeks, I will fully do MY homework and base my decision solely on the FACTS. And no matter who I decide to vote for, I should NOT be shunned, disregarded, or put down. THAT behavior simply goes against every single thing this great country was founded on, and goes against damn near everything that those countless soldiers are fighting to protect.

So please, when you're getting into the heated debates of politics, keep in mind that you have your right to have and protect your opinion, but so does the person you are debating with. It's THEIR right, just as much as it is yours, and no ONE PERSON in American is stupid, dumb, or ignorant for having such opinions. Not any more stupid, dumb, or ignorant than you are.