This is one of the pictures that LeeAnna has convinced me to post... against my better judgement, that is..... I didn't even know she had taken this one, until I had loaded the pictures into the computer.  

Okay, so against my better judgement, LeeAnna has managed to convince me that I need to put the two pictures up that she took. SOoooo here you go! The hat says "The Mom"  

Jenny likes to show off all the things she manages to pick up off the ground.... Man, I wish she wouldn't do that!  

Jenny wanted to say "What do you want from me?" to everyone.... she's so damn cute!  

Adam wanted to say Hello! to everyone out there in cyber-world! And he wants me to tell you that the park was real fun, and know he's playing outside in the sandbox in our back yard.  

LeeAnna was making faces at her little brother to make him smile, and I managed to capture this moment. Imagine, that moment will forever be frozen in time..... hehehe I can't wait until she turns 16 and I can torture her with this one!  

He definitely looks like his daddy in this picture.... profile and all! Too damn cute! 

This was the first picture taken... he's only making this face because the sun was in his eyes, but it looks like he's saying "Where the hell are we, mom, and why did you bring me here?" 

Today's Plans

Today I will be taking the kids to the park because it is an absolutely gorgeous day here in Anchorage, Alaska. There isn't a cloud in the sky, and it's a warm 62 degrees at noon, which means that it will only get warmer. Yesterday it hit 75 degrees, which is sooooo great!

Of course I will take pictures while I'm out!

Last night we went to see the movie, and let me just say it was AWESOME! It was so great to see the work of one of the greatest comedic authors of the 20th century up there on the screen in a way that would have made him happy.

There was one problem though. There was a guy who was sitting right in front of me that reminded me of my jack-ass ex-boyfriend. From the moment this guy was within my ear shot he grated my nerves. Going on and on to his group of friends that they could sit wherever the hell they wanted to, but he was going to sit right here, because this is the sweetest spot in the whole place for sound and picture and he should know because he used to work in a theatre. Ugh.

There were only two other people with him when I first noticed him, a woman who looked old enough to be his mom, but later I found out was his girlfriend or something like it, and guy who looked really familiar to me. After looking at him for about two seconds, I ventured a "Rob?" and when he turned around we looked at each other we did the whole "Oh my god! How the hell have you been?" thing that you always do when you run into an old friend that you haven't seen in forever. I told him that I wasn't surprised to see him here on opening night, considering that this is the guy who let me borrow his "Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide" a few years ago that I still have in my entertainment center.... http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/trouse_80/detail?.dir=/383d&.dnm=1dbf.jpg&.src=ph

He mentions that Chris, another friend of mine is in the back row, and I turn and right behind me, a few rows back is my friend Chris, who like the genius he is, says "What are you doing here?" which I responded with a "Ummm, helloooooo?" while motioning to the movie screen. After about 5 minutes the jackass in front of me goes back to where Chris and his girlfriend are and manages to convince them to come join him where he's sitting. So Chris and his girl move, and now two old friends of mine are sitting in the row in front of me, with this jackass.

At the end of the movie, while I'm sitting there waiting for everyone to leave... With social anxiety I have to wait for the theatre to clear out before I can leave... so I'm talking to Rob about what he thought of the movie, and all of a sudden the jackass dumps his popcorn all over the girl he's with, and shouts "That's for wearing my shirt!" Well, she kind of laughs, but it's that laugh that all women know, the one you laugh when you first start seeing someone and they do something so asnine, but you are still in the puppy love phase and want to be polite, but you know that if they had been together for longer than 6 months that she would have slapped him or something. So I ignore it, and continue my conversation with Rob. A few seconds later the Jackass dumps the last of his popcorn on this girl. This is the best part, so pay attention.... This is when David grabs our bag of popcorn and dumps it on the jackass' head. Hehehehe...Now this guy is like maybe 5'4" and scrawny as hell, and David is taller than me, and pretty well built. The jackass turns like he's going to say something, takes one look at David and decides against it.
Chris and David do the whole macho high five thing, and the girl says "Thank you!" to which David responds "No problem. Men should treat women with more respect. Especially the women they so obviously want to sleep with." Oh MY God it was GREAT! After we left the theatre, the jackass went to the bathroom to clean the popcorn out of his clothes and go to the bathroom. I ask Chris who the hell he is, and I find out his name is Kenny. Chris explains to me that he's a really old childhood friend, their families are close, but lately kenny has gotten worse and worse, and he's getting to the point to where he just really wants to punch him the face. I laughed and told him that he reminded me of my ex, who I met through Chris oddly enough, and that I really wanted to kick him in the back of the head the whole movie.

But the kids are FINALLY done with their lunches and I want to "Get the hell outta Dodge!" So we are outta here!

Until later, Ciao!

Time Can Change Me, But I Can't Change Time

20 years ago I...
1. was still innocent
2. worshipped my parents
3. thought I could dig to China

10 years ago I...
1. Lost my virginity
2. Hated my parents
3. Wished I lived in China

5 years ago I...
1. Realized my parents are still amazing people
2. was pregnant
3. wanted to marry a dumbass

3 years ago I...
1. got my two older kids back from their father
2. Seperated from my dumbass husband
3. bought my first car

1 year ago I...
1. Finally grew up
2. Finally hooked up with someone I had loved for 6 years
3. was pregnant again for the 4th time

So far this year I...
1. Finally managed to get into therapy
2. realized how thankful I am in this life
3. finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up

Yesterday I...
1. Went to see a great movie that I had been wanting to see
2. Appreciated a sunny day
3. watched my youngest child learn how to stand up

Today I...
1. Got to sleep in for the first time in forever!
2. Completed this survey
3. Took my kids to the park and let them enjoy their youth

Tomorrow I will...
1. Go visit an old friend
2. Spend more time with my kids
3. Get out of the house

In the next year I will...
1. have my Real Estate License
2. Get out of Debt
3. Buy a new vehicle because I need it

It Has Been Decided

I am going to get my hair cut! I can't stand long hair anymore! It shall be chopped off! I'll post a before and after picture for all of you, so no worries!

Well, I just wanted to come on here real quick and let you know of my decision before we go to watch "The Hitch-Hikers Guide To The Galaxy" It is so awesome that they made this movie. David and I share a passion for this book, which is weird because he doesn't like to read and I LOVE to read, so for the two of to love the same book.... what are the odds?

I'll come back on tonight and give my review of the movie without giving it away. All I'm going to say is if you are going to see this movie, and you haven't read the book, TAKE A TOWEL. You should be able to understand after you see it.

Until later, Ciao!

Just some randomness

So, I've begun going to the gym every night (and yes, I mean EVERY night). I'm determined that this summer I WILL WEAR A BIKINI!! As I'm sitting there in the ab machine, doing my crunches, and my abs are screaming at me, the saying "No Pain, No Gain" pops into my head. As that pops in there, my alternate personality, the smart ass in my head, says "I thought that when you are on a diet, the whole point is to lose weight, not gain it. So why do they say that?"

This is what I have to deal with people.

Yesterday, my legs were so tired pretty much right away when I got on the treadmill, and it didn't help that for some reason, all the GOOD TREADMILLS at my gym are all fucked up and not working, so I had to use one of the crappy ones. Well, right as I'm ready to give up on it, I look up at the T.V.'s and you would not believe what was playing on one of them.... G.I. Jane. Talk about one hell of a motivator. It was at the scene where they are all in the ocean, and it's night time, and the drill instructor is yelling at them and they are only allowed to get out of the water because she was able to answer his question correctly..... Yeah, so I toughed it out and made it through the whole cycle.... I was even about to do a second one just so I could continue watching it, but I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything else if I did, so I unplugged and got off the treadmill.

Aaron has officially began crawling. I didn't want to call it until he actually got on his hands and knees and he finally did yesterday! Until then he had been basically pulling himself around by his arms.
Speaking of the little guy, he's going to be a fun 2 year old. I can tell already. And when I say fun, I mean it sarcastically, just in case you didn't catch that. He already throws his tantrums. It's cute now, but I know I'm going to tire of it at some point in the future. He gets mad when I'm trying to change his diaper and he wants to crawl off and I won't let him, or when I'm trying to get clothes on him. (He's such a boy, he wants to run around naked ALL the time!) What he does is, he starts off by kicking his legs, and if that doesn't get him what he wants, he'll scrunch up his face and start screaming at me. Not like crying, but literally screaming as if he would cuss me out if he could! Like I said, I think it's cute right now.

Also, the little boy has suddenly decided that 6 a.m. is now the time that the whole family should be awake. He starts off by waking up Daddy (who is in charge of taking care of him at night, so I can sleep, so I can function properly the next day) and then by waking me up. Of course, we have to entertain him until about 7, when it's time for LeeAnna to wake up and take her shower. Which, when I go into her room to wake her up, the noise from Little Man wakes up Jennifer, whose bed is creaky and in turn wakes up Adam.

It was reassuring to hear from my cyber twin... whew! I can breath a sigh of relief! I hope you get home soon, and I hope the whole situation sorts itself out for you!

Another update, I have officially started on a book. I have even managed to convince a photographer to take all the pictures I need for the book, basically for free. It's nice to know people! I'll try to keep you guys up to date on how it's going.

I realized today that I have a renewed appreciation for life and everything involved in it. I'm noticing a lot, things I would never have seen before. It's very refreshing!

Well, The Apprentice is on, and it's down to the final four, and I really want to see the Street Smarts take it all the way, so I'm off to watch my favorite show!

Until later, Ciao!

I stayed up all night long waiting for your call, and you never called.... what the heck man!! 

Bah, I'm bored.... let's see what's over there! 

Coming to get the camera! 

This is where he noticed that I was taking his pictures, and because he HAS to have whatever mommy has, he decided to come and inspect the camera. 

Did I have twins? Nah, he just LOVES that baby in the mirror!! 

He loves playing with his reflection!! 

Look at him sitting up! He's so damn cute!! 

Random Thoughts

I've had a series of random thoughts that I can't seem to let go of, so I figured I would post them here, and hopefully I will be able to move on to other random thoughts. So here goes....

First off, let me just say that closed minded people just really piss me off. Anyone who is a homophobe deserves all the hell that life can throw at them. I happen to have a brother who is gay, and I must say that I support him 100%, and I totally agree with a lot of the thoughts he has considering our "government". I think that any person who denied the ability to marry and have a family just because of their sexual preference should NOT have to pay taxes. Why give the government that denies you your rights any of your money? I personally think this is a great idea, and I would love to see all the gay people in America rise up together and perform one HUGE protest against the government, and even file a HUGE class-action law suit.

Speaking of taxes, can I point something out? One of the reasons our founding fathers created this government is because we had fought our way out from under the oppressive rule of the brits, and to escape the huge taxes that they were imposing on us. Remember the Boston Tea Party? Also, a lot of the taxes we have today were initiated back when we were fighting in the World Wars, and they were only supposed to be temporary to help cover the cost that we lost with more than half our workforce helping out in the fighting. They were supposed to be lightened after the wars. But our wonderful government realized what they had going and decided to keep it going. Don't get me wrong, I pay my taxes, and I like to see my taxes go to good use, but "good use" is NOT paying for some over-indulgent, self-preserving, ego"testicle", power-hungry politco that calls themselves our "Representatives". Or, as I like to call them, our current "Mis-Representatives". Here's an idea..... take all of the politicians, and all public office positions, and make them minimum wage jobs. See how many people actually run for election then. See how many people actually want the job. It's a good way to weed out all the bullshitters. It's a good way to get people in office that REALLY care. And it's a damn good way to save this country a WHOLE lotta money too!

Another thing I have a problem with- I think there should be a whole new department added to the current Police Departments. Traffic Control. These public service officers would be dedicated strictly to monitoring the roads. They would be required to drive around for their entire 8 hour shift, watching for speeders, reckless drivers, and any other offenders that are potentially a bad accident waiting to happen. I see too many dickwads that get away with doing 90 in a 35, running red lights, driving the wrong way downt the street, etc. Yet, if I forget to use my turn signal in a FREEKING TURN ONLY lane (which by the way it states in the driving manual that you get from the DMV that if you are in a TURN ONLY lane that you do NOT have to use your turn signal... I brought it with me and showed the judge to get out of that ticket! Go me!), I get pulled over. I wouldn't be able to count on both my hands and my feet the number of times that I have come within inches of death due to asshole drivers within the past month alone! Sheesh!

Well, I have to say that the Wellbutrin XL has been a GODSEND for me! I'm not nearly as angry as I have been in the past year (Although you probably can't tell by this blog), I'm actually able to focus, and I'm able to notice my anger levels so much better and I can let people know when they are ticking me off and warn them that unless they want to hear me scream, they should probably back off..... It's niiiiiiiiiiice! :) And I have been in a GREAT mood too! Therapy has done SOOO much!

Oh well, I'm going to load in some pictures so you can see all the cuteness that I get to experiance every day!

Until later, Ciao!

P.S.~ InANutShell, WHERE ARE YOU?? I'm going crazy here wondering how you are, and what's going on!! Let me know! I miss you "cyber-twin"!

Peek-A-Boo

Well hello there!

My son is now crawling, and getting around quite well, so as you can imagine I don't really have enough time to sit at a computer and type up a post. Thankfully I have a free moment right now to give a quick update.

This week was "Spirit Week" at the kids school, and Monday was "Wacky Hair Day". I put LeeAnna's hair into a bunch of little buns all around her head, and I shaved Adam's head and gave him a mohawk, which actually turns out to look pretty darn good, so we left it that way.

Tomorrow night (after sundown) is the start of Passover, which means that David has to go a whole week with no bread. Which sucks for him, because in this house, we love our bread! We go through a whole loaf (at least) every day.

I'll try to get some new pictures up soon, because believe me, I've got some REALLY cute pics!!

Until later, Ciao!

P.S. To InANutShell (Aka my "cyber-Twin") I hope everything is going well, I left you an offline message... I finally got a hold of my friend who was a manager for U-Haul and she told me what you need to do to clear the whole mess up.... Good luck sweetie... I'm sending as much good vibage your way as possible!!

All Better!

In so many more ways than one!

Last week was my neighbor J's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU OLD FOGIE!!!! and we went out to dinner at Outback Steakhouse, and this past Saturday we went out to the bar. Hehehehe not your usual bar though, we went to the GAY bar!! It was SOOOO much fun! I haven't been out in almost 2 years, and to be able to have some "grown-up" time for the first time in such a LOOOOONG time was great! (I got a little drunk too, coming home to my still sick Baby Daddy, and slurringly asking him, "Oh! Are you my bootie call tonight?" Hehehe) J's wife K shook her little bootie on the dance floor for most of the night, completely oblivious to everyone and everything around her, because she kicks ass like that! (Well, she was checking out some of the hottie lesbians....but then again, so was I! LOL)

Aaron is doing SOOOO much better now. He's over his cold, and he had his 6 month check up. He is so amazing to me sometimes. I've never had a child NOT cry when they get their shots, but this little man was just so incredible. The first shot he didn't cry at all!! Just layed there smiling and cooing at the nurse, babbling away. The second shot, the one that the nurse said makes all the babies scream, he only cried one or two little wails, basically less than two seconds and then he was done. Gave me a dirty look but shot the most adorable little smile at the nurse!

Well, as I mentioned in an earlier post, I am in therapy. I recently got my diagnosis from the Psychiatrist, and as it turns out (which means I already knew...), I'm depressed, I "suffer" from social anxiety (well a big D-UH! on that one!), and also not surprisingly I have adult ADHD. Which really makes sense considering that my son has it REALLY bad, and I've always had all of the symptoms. So, they started me on Welbutrin XL, which since I've been taking that, I've noticed one hell of a difference, but thankfully I don't FEEL any difference. Which means that I don't have any of the doped up feeling that comes from the stimulants that they normally prescribe. (The WXL helps with the depression, the anxiety, the ADHD, it helps bring back the desire for a sex life....which had disappeared.... and it will help me lose weight. She also said that if I did smoke, it would help me quit too. Kind of like a wonder drug.)
Let me just say that I am SO thankful for this. I have actually been able to sleep normally because it doesn't take 2 hours to quiet all the chatter in my mind to be able to fall asleep. I get a good nights rest and I've been waking up at 7:30 every morning (without the help of an alarm clock) in a GOOD mood for a change (I've never been a morning person, and now I am!). My mind is quiet enough for me to actually focus on things. And my mood has DRASTICALLY changed! I'm in such a good mood lately that even the things that normally make me too angry don't really seem to bother me anymore. Even my evil ex-mother-in-law doesn't really tick me off too much anymore. <---- That's a freakin' miracle in and of itself!
I've got SO much more energy now too!

Well, I'm being told it's bed time.... so from a much happier me, Ciao!

You Learn Something New Everyday!

Wow. Did you know that a really bad sinus infection can cause pain that closely mimics that of a toothache? A REALLY BAD toothache? I discovered that while browising around on www.WebMd.Com That, and I kind of figured it out on my own when laying my head on right side, and all of the pain disappears. Although now everything is muted in my left ear. I think this is getting somewhat serious. Maybe I should go see a Doctor. But I can't afford it.

Damn! Sometimes I really wish I lived in Canada! Free Medical to all, and to all a healthy life!

Ow! The Horrible Agony!

I swear that God, or someone is seriously testing me in this life. I better be a Queen or something in the next life!

So, now on top of the cold that I have been battling, and on top of the damn sinus infection that has been killing my face, now I have got THE worst teeth-ache! I say teeth, because while it started as one tooth, it has now progressed to the point that the entire left side of my face is KILLING me! Feels like someone took a sledgehammer, a la "Misery" to my face! I AM SO MISERABLE right now!!!!

So, now that you've got your update as to why I haven't been online lately, I'm going to go curl up in my bed and pray that somehow God will finally shine a ray of sunshine on me and take at least ONE of my ailments away!

Until later, OOOOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!

(Peeks out from under the covers) Hi!

We are still sick. This is SO not fun! I swear that I have like the weakest damn immune system. My son, who is almost 6 months old, gets a VERY mild case of RSV and is already feeling a bit better after 3 days of REALLY being sick. And the whole time he's been his usual, happy, playful self. I, however, get knocked on my ass with this damn head cold, am completely miserable, don't want to move around, just want to curl up in my brand new HUGE bed, curl up under the covers and pass out until this damn thing passes. I'm grouchy, I'm irritable, and I just don't want to deal with people in general. (I've already warned the kids that unless they want to listen to me yell until I lose my voice, they should probably be on their absolute BEST behaviour. LeeAnna decided to stay the night at a friends house! lol)

The snow is once again disappearing.... but I'm not going to say anything about seasons. Last time I did, we got dumped on, so this time I'm keeping my mouth shut!

When I'm not feeling like crap, I'm immersing myself into this whole "Domestic Goddess" role. My house has been clean, and I've been making dinner (from scratch-no boxed meals) every night, doing everything a domestic goddess is supposed to do. I've even worked out chore schedules, so that I don't get overwhelmed with the sheer size of the task at hand, when it comes to taking care of this family. For example, with the laundry, one person get's theirs done one day a week. Granted, I'm doing laundry every day of the week, but at least I'm not doing 20 loads all at once. (And, I just realized that when you do smaller loads, you get done a LOT faster!) Today I did my clothes, tomorrow I do the baby's.

Well, my nose is all stuffed up again, so I need to go take some medicine, and since Daddy has the baby, I'm going to go pass out.

Until later...... ah ah ah AHCHOO!!!!


P.S. I never get into political topics, current interest topics, or typically hot topics if I can help it, but I did want to say that my thoughts and prayers go out to the husband and family BOTH of Terri Schiavo. She has been an insperation to this mother, and I am proud to say that not only do I now have a living will, but my final will is complete as well. And to top it off, I have even discussed with my family what I want done, so that there is NO argument and no debate over what my wishes would have been. I also want to say that I feel it is wrong the way the doctors, government, or whoever makes the main decision, it's cruel, and it might as well be considered a type of torture to starve someone to death. They could have figured something out that was a bit more humane than to let that poor woman waste away like that for 2 weeks. It goes against all things considered decent to human nature to deny someone nourishment or even the basic sustinence to survive. There HAS to be a much more humane way to let this woman pass on than the one that she had to go through.